Post diagnosis learning curve

One of the more fascinating (to me) aspects of being finally diagnosed with a connective tissue disorder is all the little things over my life just falling into place. It was the same when I was diagnosed with Aspergers, with a heart issue, with a sleep disorder....

I gave her a pen

I’ve been trying to find the words for this for several months now. I’ve been in therapy using EMDR since September. It doesn’t work for everyone, but it turns out that I’m the ideal kind of patient for this. Combination of personality, more...

In the Tomb with Lazarus

The other night I had an unusual dream. I dreamt that I and a number of other people moved to another world, where we established a new civilization. It was beautiful and it worked. Not flawlessly of course, it was no utopia. But it was good. Over the course of the...

Summer

I’m talking to God again. I don’t feel like he is absent anymore. It isn’t what it should be, it is far from ideal, but I’ve found my way back to talking to him. Through other people and their needs of course, not for myself. That’s how...

Winter

The theme of last year was abandonment and safety, security and fear. It was a difficult year in many ways, and ended on an incredibly low note. I had quite the row with the Almighty, and we know how that always turns out. But I needed to say my piece before I could...